Parents and elders and even friends seem to give you the same line during times of distress or when things don’t go as you planned… “Everything happens for a reason” or “You will have whatever God has planned for you.” I’m starting to actually believe that lately but if this is the case, couldn’t it happen in a more graceful manner?? This has literally been the crappiest year of my life between the economic crisis and other personal matters which I won’t discuss right now and my life has panned out over the last 6 months without offering me any control over the situation. And for any of you control freaks out there (or who atleast like to give it your best shot), it really annoys the hell out of you. But after a couple or many smacks in the face, you start to think “Oh what the hell, bring it on cuz it can’t possibly get worse.” So after giving it all I had to no avail, I have decided to let the powers that be do their thing and just sit back and watch whatever else is planned in order to find the reason that all this happened to me this year. But in the meantime until that happens, I am hoping I won’t hear that line again unless the person saying it has an answer to that question.
By the way, I’m not raging ;)… Surprisingly enough, I actually feel quite content which is strange given the circumstances. I just felt like expressing.
Tags: Back to you, John Mayer, Routine
I’ve been in love with “Back to You” by John Mayer for a while now (over a year actually) and somehow it found its way back to my playlist in this last week. It’s such a relaxing and mellow song and the lyrics are beautiful as well. I’m not advocating John Mayer’s behavior in any way but I really do enjoy his songs. Anyway, it’s been such a hectic month and finally all the dust is settling. I woke up this morning and felt that everything was coming back to the way it used to be – which is just the way I like it. Got my morning routine back in check, Hanx and I are back to normal life (as opposed to the non stop hype created by the engagement), the inspiration to blog is back, and fall is officially here.
Anyway, just wanted to check in and say hi to everyone.
It’s been a while since I last posted. I’ve been wanting to but I literally have nothing to say. I guess it’s normal to go through blanks or writer’s block 😉 but I do miss writing. So I decided to get on here and just freestyle for a second or two. I’ll probably post a few random posts until I get my groove back. Until then, please bear with me. All is well on my end. Same Same! Work, Home, Hanx, Shopping. I have to run to a meeting now. Just wanted to say hi.
Have a great day!
Tags: Death, Life, Sadness
A few days ago, two people that were in AUB during my time died in a car crash. Fonzy was pretty hard hit because he knew them very well. I remember them from around but I wasn’t very close with them. After talking to some more of my AUB friends, it turns out another person also died a few years back who we knew quite well. I’ve been looking at the different pics and videos everyone has been posting in my Facebook network about the two guys that recently passed away and I’m in disbelief.
It’s so easy to get caught up in your life and worry about the smallest things that can bring your whole day down… and then something so tragic comes along and makes you realize that you are wasting your precious time on the silliest things and that you should really be treasuring every second that you are given.
It hits you hardest when someone your age or someone very close to you passes away unexpectedly. What’s worse is that the world keeps turning and after a few years, things start to fade. And these images and videos are all that people will have of that friend they used to know in university. It’s such a sad reality. I’m not feeling that good at all today. God Be With Them.
Once again, I’m off to Beirut to visit home. This trip will be for 7 days of non work stress. I’m honestly just looking forward to eating good home cooked meals and bumming around and of course catching up with my old friends. So I may be missing in action for that time if the internet isn’t up to speed over there. I’ll keep you updated.
Today was the ultimate relaxing day for me. I had absolutely nothing pending to do, no obligations, no coffee meets, no shopping cuz I’m broke, just free time. I woke up at 10:30am and went to the gym for 1 hour of cardio. Then I went to Sultan Center to stock up for one week of attempting to cook. This whole week I collected recipes from different magazines that were A-B-C easy and I got all the groceries I would need.
Got back home, had lunch and then started my beauty routine. First I dry brushed, I loaded on the shea butter instead of olive oil this week, took a shower and now I’m just sitting back watching tv and blogging while drinking Green Tea.
It’s been a long time I haven’t bummed out like this. And with the dust everywhere, I am in bliss just laying back with nothing to do. This is the life!
Wow it’s been almost a week since I last blogged and I’m feeling uneasy about it. Unfortunately, my work recently blocked all entertaining material such as msn, facebook, wordpress and blogger which leaves me at a disadvantage when it comes to maintaining my blog. I have been wanting to write when I get home but I am currently on a crash gym course so I’m going directly the gym after work almost everyday and then I usually meet up with Hanx. So my new blogging strategy is to log on whenever time and connection is available.
Right now I’m sitting with Hanx & Abu Elias preparing to watch Iron Man. I don’t know why but I’m at a loss for words but I mainly wanted to put a word in just to tell everyone “hey” and that “I’m still here”.
I’m very bothered that they blocked all these applications at work. I mean it doesn’t necessarily mean we’re gonna work any more if they do. And it is quite demotivating considering that we are spending half of our day in the work place. Anyway, enough nagging.
I hope you all have a great week. Will keep in touch every chance I get.
I’m sitting here at home…. feeling sick and drained and just waiting for my body to tell me it’s time to sleep again. This has been one of those weeks where things just keep getting worse. First, the situation in Lebanon is hopeless. Just when you think that things should start to look up now because they can’t possibly go even lower, they do. Second, my sister’s birthday is today and I was supposed to be packing to catch a flight on wednesday to go and celebrate with her but the airport is still closed and so are most of the roads so what good would that do. Third, I got this messed up sickness that is making me sleep 12 hours out of the day. And to top it all off, the weather in Kuwait is perfect these few days. Perfect beach weather, perfect breeze, perfect sun. And here I am blogging and sleeping and watching Friends. Oh well. I’m not really one to look at the glass half empty but sometimes it feels really good to have an all out bitch session. 🙂 Thanks for listening. Hope your days are going better than mine!
Tags: Fear, Phobia, Storm
These last few years, I have found myself increasingly worrying about things that never used to bother me before… From one year to the next I started getting more cautious about flying, driving on rain, driving down mountains and basically putting myself in situations where I wasn’t in control. There was no stimulus for these fears, no tragic accidents or really bad turbulence, just fear.
One reason I had loved Kuwait was because there were no natural disasters or scary incidents. Dust, thunderstorms, no big deal. Then I got stuck by myself in the middle of Salmiya during the last storm and I ended up somehow in the backseat of my car on the floor crying with the wind, the rock sized hail and the swirling dirt.
Without knowing, I had developed my newest phobia… The fear of the sand storm. Every time I see a little bit less visibility I go into panic mode thinking that I need to get to my house just in case. And that panic has led me to cancel outings, hate my drives home to and from work and just ruin my mood altogether. Being such a recent event, I hope I will get over it soon and not let it turn into another real phobia.
I am sure now that I either need to see a psychologist or I must come to terms that this is all a part of growing up. Whatever it may be, I’m just happy it finally rained last night and that May is almost over so I can get back to living worry free (atleast when it comes to natural disasters).
I’m sitting here at work… I just finished lunch and I can’t move right now. I think I may have ate too fast, but that’s nothing new. I had a really busy morning and now things are back to normal. I feel like talking but not out loud so I thought I’d just write whatever I’m thinking to all of you.
I’m still on my diet. I’m doing really well on it and everyone around me is noticing so I’m really happy with that. Plus I get to fit into clothes i haven’t fit into for a while. The bad side is that I need a whole new wardrobe cuz my old pants and jeans look really bad and loose on me now.
I started smoking again (damn it!) and i dont’even know why. I didn’t even miss it but as usual, i thought i was “Miss I’m strong enough” and i found myself back where I started. I’m going to quit in a matter of weeks but for now it feels too good.
I’m debating on how I’m going to plan my escape from work tomorrow for the repeat of friday’s storm that they are predicting. I don’t think I can go through that HELL again. I know I can be a drama queen but this was not one of those times… It was SCARY. If you want to get an idea of the freak storm that happened, you can see it on Fonzy‘s site. And who knows how bad it will be this time if it happens.
Was catching up on my reading today and found Why the 9/11 Conspiracy Theories Won’t Go Away which discusses the two opinions on the matter:
There are two competing explanations for these puffs of dust: 1) the force of the collapsing upper floors raised the air pressure in the lower ones so dramatically that it actually blew out the windows. And 2) the towers did not collapse from the impact of two Boeing 767s and the ensuing fires. They were destroyed in a planned, controlled demolition.
I’m one of the people who believes in Case 2 or maybe the grey area between 1 and 2 regarding who was involved in the tragedy.
Aside from that, life is pretty great. Got a busy month up ahead. Actually I have a busy summer up ahead. Travel, family, weddings, my bday 🙂 Looking forward to it.